Unemotium

The last several posts have been teeming with facts and lacking emotion.
There is an easily explainable reason for this.

I have been lacking emotion.

...well, that's not entirely true.
It's almost like there's a canvas umbrella inside of me, but instead of shielding me from the raindrops of life, it's insulating the raindrops inside and keeping out the sunshine. That seems like a really hippie explanation, but I figure it is nonetheless easily recognizable.
So I am feeling emotions: they are not the ones I want to be feeling, though, and most of the time I am a numb unfeeling ball of unemotium walking around.

And, once again, I find myself identifying the problem, multiple possible sources for the problem, and multiple possible solutions to the problem, but I have no drive to fix it.
I don't want anyone else to fix it, either. It's like part of me cares that I don't care, but the other part doesn't.

...does that make any sense?
What does it mean?